I’ve been working on being more gentle and nurturing towards myself, taking life slower and being kinder with my self talk and actions for some years now.

When I first began to be more in tune with me and my body I recognised that there was a continuous underlying nervous tension and anxiety running like an undercurrent in my body. When I contemplated and felt into this anxiety I realised I had spent most of my life from being a teenager (and possibly even younger) in a state of angst, wondering what on Earth I was here for, what was the purpose to life and more deeply and importantly what was MY purpose.

By the age of 34 the need to find MY purpose became all consuming. I found myself almost constantly questioning – “what’s my purpose, what is it that I am here to do, what’s my calling?” “Is this all there is eat, sleep, work and repeat ad infinitum?” Surely there had to be more.

As 35 approached my need to find my purpose, my calling intensified, what was the part I was to play in the grand scheme of life? I searched in vain and almost quit my profession so I could try something new – healer, teacher, counsellor, coach?

But this is where the problem lies. When we consider our purpose to be something external we may never find it. When we attach purpose to a goal or activity, a vocation we are likely setting ourselves up for failure or disappointment.

And this is exactly what I believed until I started to apply the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom via Universal Medicine to my life 9 years ago.

Purpose has nothing to do with what you do. Purpose is about discovering and nurturing who you truly are, to know and love yourself and to reflect that love to the World.

That’s IT!

Of course you can have passion for life and the things that you do. But they are just that, things you enjoy doing. They are essential to the quality of your life but not to your inner quality.

Purpose does not hinge on you getting that job, a pay rise, meeting the right partner, having kids or not, being liked or having loads of friends on Facebook.
Purpose is something else entirely…..

What if your purpose is very different than what you’ve been taught to believe?

What if your purpose is to build an everlasting relationship with yourself, to fall deeply in love with the precious you?

What if your purpose is to deeply care for yourself and gently heal and by doing so, become a role model for others to do the same?

What if your purpose is to release all shame and feelings of unworthiness and find your vulnerability and fragility?

What if your purpose is to teach yourself that there is no such thing as perfection and that your never ending pursuit of it is destroying your life and your relationships?

What if your purpose is to elevate your energy and that of the world around you?

What if your purpose is to develop an everlasting faith in yourself, to remember your Divinity and treat yourself accordingly?

What if your purpose is to take impeccable care of yourself so that you have the energy and joy to serve others?

Take a moment to consider the possibility that your purpose is about finding yourself.

Consider that your self-worth has nothing to do with your craft or calling and everything to do with how you treat yourself and your inner quality.

I’ve met brilliant and successful people whose lives appear incredible from the outside but who are a mess on the inside; full of bitterness, meanness, sadness or self loathing etc.

Imagine what we could accomplish if we moved from loathing to love, if we knew that no matter how important our mission our inner purpose matters even more.

People are like plants, we all lean towards the light.

You are the light. Your inner purpose is to connect with that light and become the love that you naturally are.

How Bad Does It Have To Get?

It is curious that we take better care of our cars than we do ourselves. We understand the care and fuel our car engines require, and we regularly add the appropriate substance. To use something different would be ridiculous and expensive.

Yet, we fail to do the same for ourselves.

The human body is designed to function with a specific type of fuel. How bad does it have to get before we simply go back to the food and way of living we were designed to thrive on?

How bad does it have to get before we admit that the way that we treat our body and the way we live simply isn’t working?

Taking Flight

“Once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return.”

― Leonardo da Vinci

I used to be scared to fly. So scared I would have panic attacks in the airport. I’d feel nauseous for days before travelling and anxious at the mere thought of it.

Ironically, once we had hurtled down the runway, achieved take off and reached cruising altitude I always felt totally fine.

This continued for years, in fact it got worse until what I realised was …..

I wasn’t scared of flying! I was scared to fly. I was scared to spread my wings, take off, reach new heights and unleash my potential.

The Cycle of Responsibility

Each day a new dawn, the sun rises and another day begins, yesterday is forgotten, it doesn’t matter how I was, what I did or said as today is a new day and all that occurred yesterday is behind me, somehow taken care of, wiped away by the passage of time while I slept.
But is the slate really wiped clean, have my deeds been erased or is it a convenient way of thinking that creates the appearance that I seemingly move from one day to the next with all I have done now in the past? Or could it be that each day carries forward the past and all I’m actually doing is revolving with the planet, going around in circles repeating cycles of 24 hours where everything in my past is carried with me?

When considering these two viewpoints, one appears to allow me to do and say as I please, never needing to suffer the consequences or deal with my issues because they are in the past and gone. The other would mean that everything has an outcome, a ripple effect and an imprint that I come back to and live day after day.

Nature and Life are cyclical in essence with day and night, the seasons, the orbit of the planets, the water cycle, the carbon and nitrogen cycles; the biochemical metabolic processes of the body like the Kerbs cycle, sleep and circadian rhythms, the menstrual cycle, digestion and elimination, respiration, circulation and life and death. This being the case would it not make more sense that time and thus we too are cyclical and not lineal in nature.

Holding on to the concept that each day is a separate new day and that time is lineal allows us to be irresponsible with how we live, how we are with ourselves and others, how we interact and the things that we do. It allows us to not have to deal with our hurts or emotional issues because they are seen as in the past.
However, if life is cyclical this would mean that the past is not in fact the past but something that is lived in the now until it is resolved, healed and truly let go and that everything we do comes back to us in one shape or form.

This can be seen negatively if we treat ourself and others poorly or as positively if we are caring, considerate, gentle, loving and treat others how we would want to be treated. This cyclical nature to life, under the law of cause and effect or Karma, however would demand of us to live with a higher level of integrity and responsibility, which perhaps for some is too challenging a notion to consider as often we do not like to be held that accountable and hence why we are not open to outcomes in life being due to our own choices. If what happens to us is a result of our deeds and choices coming back to us then we can no longer blame the world for the circumstances of our life.

To keep thinking that each day is gone and no longer a part of our life and that external influences shape events is like stepping out of a messy room that we have created thinking that when we come back in all the mess will have magically disappeared. But as life is cyclical we return to that messy room day after day unless we take responsibility and start to tidy up what we choose to leave behind. This means taking responsibility for our choices and being willing to deal with our unresolved issues and emotional hurts so as to free ourselves from the patterns and habits that seemingly shape who we are.

At the core of the principles presented by Serge Benhayon of Universal Medicine is that everything we are, do, say and think and our state of being or energy affects all of life simultaneously and that life is a repeating cycle of 24 hours. That the way we are today sets up the way we are tomorrow and to expand on that the way we are this life influences our next. And hence if this is the case then would it not serve us to be more aware and responsible for our choices and the way we are with others and ourselves.

Taking responsibility is not always easy, it begins with a commitment to be more self- loving, gentle and caring of ourself and our body and thus of others. Being responsible asks us to become more aware of and acknowledge the choices we make and the part that we play in life instead of considering ourselves like a pinball randomly bouncing from one thing to another. It also includes us being honest and willing to deal with our issues, hurts and ways of being that keep us from living with more love and respect for ourself and those around us.

Since choosing to live this way my life has been greatly enhanced, I have a better understanding of how I feel, why I react to certain events or situations and what lies unresolved under the surface that is influencing my choices and behaviours. I feel much more in control of myself and in charge of my life from the way I am with myself, what foods I eat, to my sleep, my relationships, the way I work and how I exercise. I feel I am more understanding and compassionate with myself and others, that I am more patient and better able to cope with life. I would not say life is easier but it is certainly a lot less complicated. As a result of feeling this way I am less stressed, wake up refreshed and full of energy, have lost weight, am fitter and healthier and have got to know who I am.

I am able to stop and reflect on my day, my emotions and behaviours and see what was triggered in me or what lead to certain events or me feeling how I do and work on it instead of blaming circumstances or others. This also applies to when I am feeling amazing or have had a great day. It is like having a mini stocktake and appreciating what is truly helpful and what isn’t then choosing to keep what works and let go of what doesn’t. Living this way has been and is very empowering as I know that in each and every moment I have the ability to choose how I want to be, what I want to do and how to feel.

What I have realised is that our past choices really do create our future so unless we choose to live differently it will simply be a case of history repeating itself day after day and perhaps life after life.