I’ve been working on being more gentle and nurturing towards myself, taking life slower and being kinder with my self talk and actions for some years now.
When I first began to be more in tune with me and my body I recognised that there was a continuous underlying nervous tension and anxiety running like an undercurrent in my body. When I contemplated and felt into this anxiety I realised I had spent most of my life from being a teenager (and possibly even younger) in a state of angst, wondering what on Earth I was here for, what was the purpose to life and more deeply and importantly what was MY purpose.
By the age of 34 the need to find MY purpose became all consuming. I found myself almost constantly questioning – “what’s my purpose, what is it that I am here to do, what’s my calling?” “Is this all there is eat, sleep, work and repeat ad infinitum?” Surely there had to be more.
As 35 approached my need to find my purpose, my calling intensified, what was the part I was to play in the grand scheme of life? I searched in vain and almost quit my profession so I could try something new – healer, teacher, counsellor, coach?
But this is where the problem lies. When we consider our purpose to be something external we may never find it. When we attach purpose to a goal or activity, a vocation we are likely setting ourselves up for failure or disappointment.
And this is exactly what I believed until I started to apply the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom via Universal Medicine to my life 9 years ago.
Purpose has nothing to do with what you do. Purpose is about discovering and nurturing who you truly are, to know and love yourself and to reflect that love to the World.
Of course you can have passion for life and the things that you do. But they are just that, things you enjoy doing. They are essential to the quality of your life but not to your inner quality.
Purpose does not hinge on you getting that job, a pay rise, meeting the right partner, having kids or not, being liked or having loads of friends on Facebook.
Purpose is something else entirely…..
What if your purpose is very different than what you’ve been taught to believe?
What if your purpose is to build an everlasting relationship with yourself, to fall deeply in love with the precious you?
What if your purpose is to deeply care for yourself and gently heal and by doing so, become a role model for others to do the same?
What if your purpose is to release all shame and feelings of unworthiness and find your vulnerability and fragility?
What if your purpose is to teach yourself that there is no such thing as perfection and that your never ending pursuit of it is destroying your life and your relationships?
What if your purpose is to elevate your energy and that of the world around you?
What if your purpose is to develop an everlasting faith in yourself, to remember your Divinity and treat yourself accordingly?
What if your purpose is to take impeccable care of yourself so that you have the energy and joy to serve others?
Take a moment to consider the possibility that your purpose is about finding yourself.
Consider that your self-worth has nothing to do with your craft or calling and everything to do with how you treat yourself and your inner quality.
I’ve met brilliant and successful people whose lives appear incredible from the outside but who are a mess on the inside; full of bitterness, meanness, sadness or self loathing etc.
Imagine what we could accomplish if we moved from loathing to love, if we knew that no matter how important our mission our inner purpose matters even more.
People are like plants, we all lean towards the light.
You are the light. Your inner purpose is to connect with that light and become the love that you naturally are.